So it's Christmas Day.

I woke up..and didn't run down to open presents with the family. Instead, I ran down to the dryer...got my work clothes and got ready for work...I had no thought in my mind of, "oh my gosh i have to work on Christmas" .. for some reason I was completely content and ok with it. And that made the day go by so well. I have never had a better time with co-workers and residents. Something that made my day at work was Judy, she is one of our residents...she walked out of her room as I was walking by...and she handed me a necklace and had me put it on her...and I almost teared up by doing it. Her husband Steve is in the hospital and she has been feeling pretty sad about it...I notice such a difference when she sits down to eat. But putting the necklace on her and telling her how beautiful it was just made my day. The look on her face showed hope..

As I went to my grandpa's after work, I wasn't sure about it...I know how some family gatherings go..and yes of course being the last single one in the family I hear the same thing every family event...we all know what that is...but I don't feel pressured anymore...I don't feel like I need to prove them by going out and finding someone in such a hurry. But that night turned into awesomeness. My brother, sister-in-law and nephew surprised me...it was SO awesome to see them...I pretty much attacked my brother by doing the whole jumping hug and wouldn't let go .. i love him and have missed him so much. :))))

Well after my grandpas, we walked across the street to my dads...and what is the first thing we do...watch the christmas play i was a part of last night. no matter how bad i did...my dad was proud of me...it made me so happy :)

so then i come home...and i start to clean the house with my mom...even if that had to involve an iPod in my ears to keep me calm...and it turned out to be nice...i heard my mom talk about all the fun stuff she is doing at the church she just started going to...and it makes me smile that she is finally getting her life settled with God...you are never too old.

Well, i'm going to get off here...and do some cleaning in my room....it needs it :)

happy christmas...

so much going on in my heart right now.

so thankful for the christmas service no matter how tired, sick, stressed i felt. i'm glad the Lord gave me the ability to laugh with friends no matter how much i just wanted to be in a corner kept to myself. :)

I may not be able to buy gifts...spend anytime with my family...have to work all day long on Christmas...but I know I have the love of my Savior who is forever with me and never leaving me!!!!

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. [[Romans 8:38-39]]


so good. 


so FLIPPIN GOOD!! 


This is going to be a great Christmas....and I'm so thankful for friends that have helped me the last few days helping me realize that I have hope...I am loved and I am wanted...




MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!


Please people..not happy holidays..because if you can say happy thanksgiving and happy new years ... then you can say merry christmas...and most certainly not merry xmas...where did anyone every get the idea from merry xmas???? oh right the people who take CHRIST out of it....people people come onnnn if you aren't going to call a holiday by it's right name...why celebrate it???? :) 

somedays are just better than the others..

this title says it all.

John 10:10.

Some people need tissues to watch their favorite, yet tear jerking tv shows and movies...I am need them for the load of crap the enemy is placing at my doorstep.

There is a big part of me that just wants the Christmas season to be over with...

God I'm allowing you to work in my heart to change me...
To change others and the world...I feel like I need to be changed in more ways than I believe...

Just one of those days..

so for this blog...i follow people..and every once in awhile i will update but mainly i blog at

http://www.tumblr.com/blog/margojean87


pictures. blogs. whatever. it's there ... i am trying to do more of it though...i will copy and paste posts and put them on here every once in awhile though :)

step out of reality.

Who knew not having a twitter or a Facebook could be so....freeing :)

*sigh of relief*

...Defeated...

We say things.

Do we mean them? 

We do things.

Is it for your own good or someone else’s? 

Pride comes before the fall, don’t be foolish.

Don’t live up to a dangerous plan even as temptingly beautiful or great it may look.

Who are you looking at? 

Yourself or someone else? 

What do I mean by that? When you have people close in your life…and you let other people into your life…who are you going to ignore? Watch yourself, you may never know how much hurt you may be causing. Don’t be exclusive to those you claim you care about.  Are you being selfish and just care about all the good things in life that you want….or the mediocre things that don’t look as good…which in the end turn out to be far more than mediocre. 

The devil comes to steal, kill, and destroy….

Left in the dust. Replaced like an old useless tile. 

oh yeah..i have a blogspot ... tumblr stole my attention :)