invisible...

Sometimes i over think things...

and right now...

i feel like i'm over thinking alot.

i just got back from a dinner with a lot of amazing people. 

i got there late so i sat at the end of the table..

and here's the thing...sometimes....i feel invisible. 

i feel like....i could spend a whole week with some of them..and none of them would say one word to me.

don't get me wrong..i'm not crying out for attention.

trust me on that one.

i just want to feel like i belong there.

I always overthink of how that girl is so cool...because that guy talks to her all the time...or....wow...i wish i could sing that good so people could compliment me. or man...if only i was....[[and yes..i'm going to say it]]..that beautiful.

i bring myself down a lot...and apparently tonight is one of those nights.

i want to fully believe that God has someone out there for me...i really do...but then i always overthink and look at a guy..and think..wow..i wish that was the guy God created for me...

I hate it. I really really hate it.

I wish i weren't so hard on myself..i really do...

I love life. But sometimes...i struggle....ok..a lot of times.

But on the bright side of life ... God is so good and so amazing. And I know the plan he has for me is better than i could ever think of...

but i just want to get to the point where i can say that without having any doubt...

one day.

I will be patient. In His timing..things will work out his way...not on my time.

:/ 

i dont know why i'm writing all this..i'm tired...and i just got home...and my mom wants me to do dishes..

seriously? :D 

peace readers.