So for Christmas today....it started out nice...got some good gifts...spent time with my mom, sister, and her boyfriend. then lunch/dinner came around...it was going sooo good. lots of laughter and good stories...then i mentioned getting something with my refund check...because it's been something i've needed...and then my mom comes up with...i don't think so...i need 500 dollars that you owe me (from random stuff that adds up differently every time somehow) .. and then more stuff keeps coming up....before I know it I'm getting attack after attack and I don't know what else to do besides be quiet and sit there....well it has come to this..I'm sitting in my room...on Christmas Day.....I'm crying...it's calmed down from the sobbing that was there...but I'm crying....
They say honor your mother and father. I try my best and when I do I get attacked on with words. These words are engraved in my head....these words that I should believe are lies...but are they? I mean...I really could lose weight...if I were smarter I really could get a better job than Arby's...and then I could make enough money to be responsible. I mean....are they lies? Or truths that need to be said in order for me to realize what I'm really looking at in the mirror?
This video .. it was sent at me in perfect timing ... and now I'm sharing it with you....
I'm learning so much this Christmas season. I'm broke and couldn't get any presents....but I got so many from my mom and sister. And of course...that just makes me feel like a failure...but so does having a job that entitles me asking "would you like fries with that?"
I'm struggling friends.
just pray...
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